... and I'm scared.
We start shooting tomorrow, and even though I have been spending so much time preparing for it this week, I in absolutely no way feel adequately prepared. I have all my notes, I have my schedules, I have my breakdowns, I even managed to swipe a new script seen as the production assistant seems to have neglected to send me one even though I have pestered her for it (which, incidentally caused me to have to retype out a whole scene for the breakdown rather than just copy and pasting it over, which was work I could have done without) so I am as ready as I'll ever be, I think, but still. I think I'll feel happier when I can get all the costumes on a rail and sorted out into order, rather than just being told 'so and so will be wearing this' but having not yet seen anything.
It should be a good first day though, it seems quite an easy one to settle everyone in, as I think for a lot of the crew it will be their first time on a set. Its quite a short shooting day, with a call time of 2pm and wrap of 11.30pm, which would be awesome if not for the fact that the last train goes at 20 past and that the next day's call time is likely to be about 7 am. Joy.
They have said they may be hauling the crew in as extras, so I may get to be an actress yet. HA HA. Yeah, that's soooo likely.
I cant help but feel that I am forgetting something so stupidly obvious and awe inspiring huge, that when I remember it, which will undoubtedly be too late, I'll actually want to jump off a building because I'll be so frustrated and annoyed at myself, and everyone will shout at me and hate me for the rest of the shoot. Fingers crossed that doesn't happen, right?
Yes, by the way, in case you're wondering, I am writing this to try and talk myself out of a minor freak out.
I think I'll have to watch some teenie rom com anime to calm myself down. I don't know why these things amuse me so much when I would be disgusted with myself if they were live action.
<3 x
Anime/Manga: 39 (Ouran High School Host Club ep 3 / Watashi ni xx Shinasai ch 7)
Last Google Search: Apparently ever since I started adding this footnote in, I don't search anything amusing anymore, so I think I'll have to cut it out.
Monday, 18 October 2010
Wednesday, 13 October 2010
How Lovely
I just looked at my last post, and noticed this:
I have such a way with words...
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"I ignored all my previous uncertainty and emotionally vomited all over this blog."
I have such a way with words...
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Untitled ...
Maybe I shouldn't just spill my guts out online.
A few posts ago, you may remember that I was ummm-ing and ahhh-ing about how much of my own personal life I should put up here, how much I should display of myself when I don't really know who is reading this. The other day, in mid-meltdown, I ignored all my previous uncertainty and emotionally vomited all over this blog. For that, I apologise.
The reason I say this is that Elle called me yesterday, worried after having read my last post. I guess I just want to reiterate that I'm OK, I just needed to vent, and this blog is a good platform to do so. As far as I am aware, my only readers are two people who I trust completely and unconditionally, and so are more than likely to already know about anything I share on here prior to me posting it.
In other news, my shoot has just been extended by a week. I'm really not sure what to think about this, as having made up my mind to probably look into other career paths, the whole thing kind of feels a bit redundant. Not that I'm not trying my best and taking the experience for as much as I can, of course.
The main down side is nanowrimo. I want so much to be able to do it this year, but I just don't see how I'm going to manage it when I'll be so busy for the first two weeks of the month. I think what I'll have to do is spend the whole day thinking about what I'm going to write, planning it all out in detail, and then when I get home I can just blurt it all out in record time. I have decided I'm going to carry on my novel from last year, but where it was originally meant to be all one book, I'll leave last years where it is as part one completed, and make this years nano part two. That way I don't have to do much planning as I already know my characters, setting and general plot line. I know from last year that I can write 1000 words in an hour, so all I really need is a maximum of 2 hours writing time a day, which can be at bed time as I'm trying to wind down, and I should be able to make it. If I don't manage to keep up, at least I have the last two weeks to really pound it out to catch up, even if I have to sacrifice my social life during November and make caffeine and sleep deprivation my new best friends.
Winning last year was a huge buzz, and that was with only working part time for the last two weeks, so really I had so much writing time that I didn't fully appreciate then. I just think it will be so much more of an achievement to win this year, and I will be so proud of myself.
I hope this is inspiring you, Eleanor. If I can do it, so can you, and if we don't, then at least we have tried! Make sure you link me to your nano profile so I can keep track of you :-p. Mine is here.
OK, I think that's enough for today.
<3 x
Anime/Manga: 38 (Kaichou ep 18 / trying to find a new one)
Last Google Search: it's empty as my laptop was in 'professional' mode at the office, hand covering the smosh sticker at all times haha
A few posts ago, you may remember that I was ummm-ing and ahhh-ing about how much of my own personal life I should put up here, how much I should display of myself when I don't really know who is reading this. The other day, in mid-meltdown, I ignored all my previous uncertainty and emotionally vomited all over this blog. For that, I apologise.
The reason I say this is that Elle called me yesterday, worried after having read my last post. I guess I just want to reiterate that I'm OK, I just needed to vent, and this blog is a good platform to do so. As far as I am aware, my only readers are two people who I trust completely and unconditionally, and so are more than likely to already know about anything I share on here prior to me posting it.
In other news, my shoot has just been extended by a week. I'm really not sure what to think about this, as having made up my mind to probably look into other career paths, the whole thing kind of feels a bit redundant. Not that I'm not trying my best and taking the experience for as much as I can, of course.
The main down side is nanowrimo. I want so much to be able to do it this year, but I just don't see how I'm going to manage it when I'll be so busy for the first two weeks of the month. I think what I'll have to do is spend the whole day thinking about what I'm going to write, planning it all out in detail, and then when I get home I can just blurt it all out in record time. I have decided I'm going to carry on my novel from last year, but where it was originally meant to be all one book, I'll leave last years where it is as part one completed, and make this years nano part two. That way I don't have to do much planning as I already know my characters, setting and general plot line. I know from last year that I can write 1000 words in an hour, so all I really need is a maximum of 2 hours writing time a day, which can be at bed time as I'm trying to wind down, and I should be able to make it. If I don't manage to keep up, at least I have the last two weeks to really pound it out to catch up, even if I have to sacrifice my social life during November and make caffeine and sleep deprivation my new best friends.
Winning last year was a huge buzz, and that was with only working part time for the last two weeks, so really I had so much writing time that I didn't fully appreciate then. I just think it will be so much more of an achievement to win this year, and I will be so proud of myself.
I hope this is inspiring you, Eleanor. If I can do it, so can you, and if we don't, then at least we have tried! Make sure you link me to your nano profile so I can keep track of you :-p. Mine is here.
OK, I think that's enough for today.
<3 x
Anime/Manga: 38 (Kaichou ep 18 / trying to find a new one)
Last Google Search: it's empty as my laptop was in 'professional' mode at the office, hand covering the smosh sticker at all times haha
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