Sigh.

Lately, I have been entertaining the thought more and more of setting up my own business. I first had the idea while at Uni, but never really thought much on it. Then, a few weeks ago, my auntie suggested to me a way out of my career slump was to 'get more arrows for your quiver' and to broaden my market. So, like doing another course or teacher training, etc. From then on, I started to think I could set up a little Internet based business, selling custom made costumes and whatnot, and be able to fit it around any other commitments I have, whether it be work or otherwise. Anything I get from it will be profit, as I would have to put very little money into in the first place, literally just the domain cost and maybe some advertising.

I have spoken to many people about this. My friends were fantastic (I love you guys for cheering and clapping when I need you to). Random boys said I should go ahead. Even a friends mother was supportive and enthusiastic. My own, on the other hand, has not been.

OK, so she is entitled to her opinion, and if she doesn't think that its the best course of action, then that's fair enough. What really pisses me off is that she complains that I don't talk to her about what I'm working towards, when if I do, all I get is criticism, and not even the constructive sort. Which leaves me less likely to want to talk about it with her in the future. Which means she hasn't got a clue about whats going through my head, how much I have thought about this. Which will piss her off because she doesn't have any control over it.

I am doing this. I'm not saying it will be my career, its more like another option. But I'm suffocating here. I need my Independence.

I'm sorry for posting this all up here. No one wants to read this. But I guess I kind of see this like a dairy, a way to get the stuff I cant talk about out loud of my chest. So sorry, and feel free not to read anymore.

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