Insomnia

*What follows is a post that was drafted in the very early hours of this morning ... as such, in the cold light of day it all seems rather amusing, so please enjoy.*

I can't sleep.

It's 4.30 am and I am so wide awake right now I am honestly starting to think that someone has impregnated my pillows with caffeine.

I wouldn't be that bothered, but right before I got in to bed, I was so sleepy I could hardly stand. And then, as soon as I got in to bed, BAM, wide awake. How is that fair?

My dad was out this evening, so my Mum and I decided to have a girly night in and watch all the Twilight films. Well, Mum only wanted to watch Eclipse, but I like Twilight, so we had Inki come over and started to watch them all. Inki got half way through New Moon and gave up. I was almost sure that when New Moon finished at 11.45, Mum wouldn't put Eclipse on, but this is the Twilight Saga we are talking about, so nothing could stop her. I watched for about an hour, and then I started to watch it with my eyes closed. I suspect that I may have fallen asleep a couple of times, but mostly I was just impressed with being able to play the film in my imagination just by listening to it. It finished at 2 am, and we headed up to bed, and that's where we are now.

I meant time wise, not that we are in bed. Well, I am in bed, but ... I'm going to shut up now, you all know what I mean.

So you know what happens when you cant sleep; you think about things too much.

First off I thought 'Oh, my new mannequin should be arriving tomorrow'.

Then I thought 'I have so much work to do for Rachey's wedding, I should really get started soon'.

This was followed by 'I am going to be a bridesmaid a lot. First Robinson, then Rachey, and then at some point my sister, and by then Inki will be getting married too, and Elle will have had a whirlwind romance with a foreigner and be getting married to him...'.

All this lead to the realisation of how true the popular phrase is.

'ALWAYS THE BRIDESMAID, NEVER THE BRIDE.'

Ah, fuck.

<3 x

Watching: Kurosaki ep 4
Reading: Hana Kimi ch 42 / Desire Climax ch 40