Crazy

Yeah so I'm not great at getting back into the blogging every day habit. 

It's not even like I have an excuse not to. I've been home alone this week while my parents have been down south with my sister. You'd think I would want to talk to someone, even if it is just the faceless internet and I'm not even actually talking. 

Today, I haven't even seen another person in real life. I've had longer conversations with myself than other people. I even got into a fight with myself, got upset and ended up crying. 

You know, writing this makes me realise that I'm going a bit funny. 

Lucky I'll be at school all day tomorrow. 

Excuses

It's a little tough getting back into the habit of blogging. Turn off my light and roll over to go to sleep, and then I remember. 

I came up to bed at quarter past 11. I have no idea where the last hour and a half have gone. 

No more nano progress. I think it's definitely not going to happen this year. Which is a huge shame but I'm just not feeling it. Which is a shame because I really want to tell this story. I started it for my second nanowrimo, so 2011, but put it on the back burners while I finished my first nano story. It's all there ready to go, it's just trying to get the will power to sit down and devote the time. Maybe next year. 

I have a wedding dress and 3 bridemaids dresses to make anyway.

Oh hey.

It's, uh, been a while. 

I know this because for some reason, blogger opened on The Cake Brigade. Also because I haven't posted for weeks. 

I have excuses. For multiple reasons, I wasn't feeling October. I was down, it was getting cold and wet and dark, and then I got a cold, and then the cold turned into a cough which has only just gone, so I was pretty much not feeling up to writing daily on how crap I felt.

I did however plan to resume all services for November. Starting with my Nan's 90th birthday. But I didn't get to experience that, let alone blog about it, because half way through Halloween night, a wild virus appeared. It used tummy bug. It was super effective. 

So Friday was spent writhing in agony. Think the cinema incident, but with slightly less vomit. Saturday was spent feeling delicate from the previous day. Sunday was spent suffering from something else. And then there was today. 

I'm feeling better now, hence the post. Well, health wise at any rate. I fear Nano is a NoGo for me this year. 

I tried, got as far as 800 words of the 2000 I was aiming for and lost all interest. Maybe it's because I finished my story and this new one just isn't stuck in my head. Maybe it's because I'm already so behind and I know it can only get harder to catch up. Maybe it's because I know I can't afford myself the luxury of doing something purely for the pleasure of it. Maybe it's because I'm just too lazy.

Probably the latter. We will see, but I don't have high hopes.