30,000

30 000 views on this blog.

That is a lot.

Especially when I only post crap ... when I post at all.

I'm not going to promise coming back just yet. I'm kind of snowed under and NaNo is on the not so distant horizon.

I don't have anything to say anyway.

Early

It's not even half 11 and I'm in bed already.

Yes, this did deserve a whole post. 

You're welcome, Internet. 

Nope

I haven't posted in a while.

I probably won't post for the next few days. 

Because I'm poorly sick and everything sucks. 

Alrhough Shinee did realease a new music video, so that's something to do while I'm gone. It's either called Everybody or Wake Up, I forget. 

Diagnosis

Get up slower. 

That was the suggestion for treatment that I got from the doctor, when I told her I frequently get dizzy to the point where I loose vision.

She also told me to make sure I'm drinking enough and to cut down on my caffeine intake. Something about my blood vessels not working properly and keeping myself fully hydrated. So that's going to be fun. I've already brought decaf tea, but not having coke when I go out will be hard. Sigh.

I'm to go back if it doesn't get better. I don't think I'll bother. I only really went to shut up the people that kept on at me about it, but to be honest, maybe I'm just getting used to it. Sure it sucks, but maybe it's just how things are.

I thought she'd at least suggest a blood test to make sure it's not anything to do with anemia being a vegetarian and all. I guess I didn't seem  to be showing other symptoms. I like her, so I'm going to trust her instincts and see what happens. 

Holding on

It's amazing how something that happened years ago can still affect you just as strongly as it did when it first happened. 

I read a notebook that I used to write in during my second year of uni. It was supposed to be for anything that I wanted to share, but it didn't really end up like that. It was basically a rant space so that I could have somewhere to vent. Kind of like this blog, but much more private. 

Time doesn't change things. I still cried, still felt pissed off, still got angry. All of these things should be irrelevant in my life now, but they still bother me almost as much as they did when they first happened. 

Maybe I have issues with letting things go. Probably. 

Lazy

Some times you put off doing something at night to do in the morning.

Sometimes, that decision has repercussions. 

Like tonight. I put off washing my hair in favour of doing it in the morning.

But my mum stole my pajamas thinking they were washing, which they were before I decided to be lazy.

So now I'm sleeping in a vest top. 

True story brah.

Typing without moving

I'm actually quite looking forward to seeing the doctor on Tuesday. I'm getting really fed up of feeling dizzy at odd times. Like about half an hour ago. I was sitting down. I could almost understand it if I were standing, or just stood up, but no, I had been in the same position for awhile. Annoying.

It probably didn't help that I have had a headache for a few weeks.

I think I'm too tired brcudrvibmibijhvioy 

Ok this proves my point, I was going for 'to blog' buy seem to have kept my in tunbkbjbyy key board. 

I have now done it 5 times in a row, I vd by even ...

Nope, no idea. 

Gone

Days just vanish.

Today has just disappeared and I have no idea where it went. 

I did some prep work on my ball gown, did some work on my bridal site, and was generally busy all day, and yet now the day is over, I seem to have accomplished nothing.

I may have mapped out the positioning of the design and looked into the materials I'll need, but I have nothing really to show for it. 

I may have short listed a load of photos for the custom section on my bridal website, but seeing as they refused to upload, I have nothing to show for it. I suspect the files were too big. 

Tomorrow won't be any more productive, so I'll have to make up for it on Sunday. Do some eBay listing, and make a proper start on the ball gown. You know, actual cutting rather than just thinking about it. 

Things I love

I brought a new foundation for my sisters wedding. Like a proper one, not a BBcream. It's amazing, and I know this might sound crazy, but I think I like it more than any of my BB creams.

It's the Bourjois Healthy mix serum foundation, and I have the liquid concealer as well. It smells really good and feels really light and natural on your skin, while still giving good coverage. It's like a gel, so it glides on really easily and blends out well, and in many ways reminds me a lot of BB cream but somehow it just feels lighter. Maybe more like the Garnier BB than the Skin 79, Missha or Étude House.

It's supposed to be full of vitamins from fruits or some such, and have anti fatigue and radiance boosting properties. I don't know about all that, sure it evened my complexion and felt nice on my skin, but I have felt the need to touch up once or twice to brighten my eye area a little.

It was quite affordable too, although that may only be due to the constant offers they have on. I think I got the concealer for half price or something, or I probably would've have got them. I am glad I did though.