Yeah. Nano isn't happening for me this year. Again.
I have simply come to the conclusion there is just no way I can do it. I'm on 11 000 words with three full writing days left; there is no way in hell I can write the remaining 39 000 words in that time. That's what, 13 000 words a day? Others may be able to do that, but I struggled with writing 4500 words, so I know my limits.
I am disappointed in myself, I'm happy to admit it. I think it would have been amazing if I had managed to crawl my way back winning this year, and not for anybody else or for any other reason but to have that personal satisfaction that I achieved something. But the odds were stacked against me too high, and I just don't have the willpower.
Part of the problem was not getting into the mind set from the start, but my main issue is that I didn't know my story this year. I had a very brief outline of what happens at the beginning middle and end, but no real detail or planning. I was under prepared, plain and simple.
However, this year, I will not allow this book to sit untouched on my computer. I know what I am capable of, and I will finish it. I will edit both parts. I will edit them again. Then next November, maybe I'll have a third part ready to draft, and then I can use the createspace discount they give nanowrimo winners each year to self publish the finished thing. Maybe even sell a copy or two on amazon. I'm not an idiot, I don't expect to ever get an agent or be published properly, but just to have a physical copy of something I have written would be more than enough for me.
Oh, and in case you were wondering what I was doing when I should have been writing since I ... well stopped writing, I finished Ouran High School Host Club anime and started on the manga, finished reading Watashi ni xx Shinasai, and watched the entirety of True Blood season three.
Sometimes a girl needs many distractions.
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Sunday 28 November 2010
Sunday 21 November 2010
TARGETS
20TH NOVEMBER - 6,500 WORDS (6089)
21ST NOVEMBER - 11,000 WORDS (8282)
22ND NOVEMBER - 15,500 WORDS (11344) *
23RD NOVEMBER - 20,000 WORDS (11344)
24TH NOVEMBER - 24,500 WORDS (ERM)
25TH NOVEMBER - 29,000 WORDS (*IGNORES GUILT*)
26TH NOVEMBER - 33,500 WORDS (LET'S)
27TH NOVEMBER - 38,000 WORDS (JUST)
28TH NOVEMBER - 42, 500 WORDS (NOT)
29TH NOVEMBER - 47,000 WORDS (GO)
30TH NOVEMBER - 51,500 WORDS (THERE)
EDIT: EPIC fail when I realised that November only has 30 days ....
* This is more depressing than encouraging. I'm slipping behind by quite a lot, and it'll be hard to catch up, if not impossible. I tend to get in the swing of it and be doing really well, then I take a break to eat or make a drink or pee or something and then cant get back into it. Ergo, maybe I shouldn't take breaks.
21ST NOVEMBER - 11,000 WORDS (8282)
22ND NOVEMBER - 15,500 WORDS (11344) *
23RD NOVEMBER - 20,000 WORDS (11344)
24TH NOVEMBER - 24,500 WORDS (ERM)
25TH NOVEMBER - 29,000 WORDS (*IGNORES GUILT*)
26TH NOVEMBER - 33,500 WORDS (LET'S)
27TH NOVEMBER - 38,000 WORDS (JUST)
28TH NOVEMBER - 42, 500 WORDS (NOT)
29TH NOVEMBER - 47,000 WORDS (GO)
30TH NOVEMBER - 51,500 WORDS (THERE)
EDIT: EPIC fail when I realised that November only has 30 days ....
* This is more depressing than encouraging. I'm slipping behind by quite a lot, and it'll be hard to catch up, if not impossible. I tend to get in the swing of it and be doing really well, then I take a break to eat or make a drink or pee or something and then cant get back into it. Ergo, maybe I shouldn't take breaks.
Friday 19 November 2010
DANG IT, I WILL DO THIS
Right now, and I mean, like RIGHT NOW, I'm having a little bit of a silent freak out. I know what the reason for this is, and I am also well aware of how irrational it is, but hey, I'm a girl and God knows how irrational freak outs are what girls do best. It doesn't help that I'm sat on my own, watching the time tick away until I can go home and do everything I have to do before heading towards what the freak out is all about.
That's enough waffling trying to set the scene for the state of my mind right now. Now to the real point of this blog post.
On November 1st, I started Nanowrimo with high hopes. Then, a measly 2318 words later, work got in the way and I gave up, telling myself that I would catch up after the shoot and all would be well. Then work finished and I couldn't be bothered, preferring to spend my newly reclaimed free time sleeping and watching Vampire Diaries, and I completely put Nanowrimo out of my head.
Until now.
Like, literally just now.
While bored at the office, with dodgy Internet and having finished reading the latest House of Night book, I thought I would go on to the website to see how far behind I was.
Ideally, I should be just over 31000 words at this point in the month.
I'm on 2300.
'Ha,' I thought to myself. 'Not a chance!'
Then I looked down at the stats thing, which told me I needed to write 4335 words a day to complete on time.
'Thats not so bad,' I said, continuing my conversation with myself. 'I wrote 5000 words on the 31st last November with no sweat.'
So, on a little piece of paper, I wrote out all the days left of the month, and assuming I managed to write 5000 words a day, I figured I would finish the month with 62,300 words. I recalculated with 4,500 words a day, and came to 56,300 words. Out of curiosity, I worked out 4000 words and realised that somehow, I could still successfully complete nanowrimo this year despite what the stats on the site had told me.
Yes, this is how I do maths.
SO, STARTING TOMORROW, 4000 WORDS A DAY AND I WILL COMPLETE NANOWRIMO 2010!
<3 x
manga / anime: don't exist until December
That's enough waffling trying to set the scene for the state of my mind right now. Now to the real point of this blog post.
On November 1st, I started Nanowrimo with high hopes. Then, a measly 2318 words later, work got in the way and I gave up, telling myself that I would catch up after the shoot and all would be well. Then work finished and I couldn't be bothered, preferring to spend my newly reclaimed free time sleeping and watching Vampire Diaries, and I completely put Nanowrimo out of my head.
Until now.
Like, literally just now.
While bored at the office, with dodgy Internet and having finished reading the latest House of Night book, I thought I would go on to the website to see how far behind I was.
Ideally, I should be just over 31000 words at this point in the month.
I'm on 2300.
'Ha,' I thought to myself. 'Not a chance!'
Then I looked down at the stats thing, which told me I needed to write 4335 words a day to complete on time.
'Thats not so bad,' I said, continuing my conversation with myself. 'I wrote 5000 words on the 31st last November with no sweat.'
So, on a little piece of paper, I wrote out all the days left of the month, and assuming I managed to write 5000 words a day, I figured I would finish the month with 62,300 words. I recalculated with 4,500 words a day, and came to 56,300 words. Out of curiosity, I worked out 4000 words and realised that somehow, I could still successfully complete nanowrimo this year despite what the stats on the site had told me.
Yes, this is how I do maths.
SO, STARTING TOMORROW, 4000 WORDS A DAY AND I WILL COMPLETE NANOWRIMO 2010!
<3 x
manga / anime: don't exist until December
Sunday 14 November 2010
Sports
My parents were watching the Grand Prix today, and while I stared unseeingly towards the screen, I got to thinking about how boring watching all sports is. Let me break it down for you.
Motor Racing - In all its various forms, it is basically just watching a load of cars/bikes/whatever drive round in circles. Sometimes one will take over another, or there will be a crash. If I wanted to see this I could just go look at any road, specifically a motorway to fully replicate the speed and likelihood of crash fatalities.
Football - A load of blokes running from one side of a field to the other. Then back again. Repeat forever, or however long a football game lasts for these days.
Rugby - See above, but with more distinct gay tendencies. I mean, come on, these guys run around trying to hug each other. Its quite sweet really, and I imagine would be a lot less painful if they weren't so eager to do so at speed.
Cricket - I cant honestly say whether I have ever watched this sport or not. It was clearly so boring if I have that I have completely wiped it from my memory. Men whacking balls with big bats? My sadistic side finds the thought highly amusing.
OK so while 'watching' the Grand Prix, this blog post seemed a hell of a lot longer and far more amusingly analytical. Having now written it, I am seeing that what I think in my head and how I manage to express it are two very different things.
In other news (whenever I write this I always feel like a news reader), the shoot has finished. The stress was stressful, but generally it was really good. I want to do another shoot and see how I cope with that before I make a full decision on what I want to do with my career. Hopefully I made a good impression, and I was told that I did. I practically managed all the costume department on my own, the only thing that I didn't have full control of was the design, but knowing that the production designer prefers sets and has no real interest in costume, maybe next time she'll give me more creative input. Its funny, as I have always said that I have no interest in designing, but I couldn't help thinking throughout what I would have done differently and how I would do things next time, so maybe I need to reconsider a bit.
Anyway, enough waffling.
<3 x
Anime / Manga: Ouran ep 23 / Watashi ni xx shinasai ch 14
Motor Racing - In all its various forms, it is basically just watching a load of cars/bikes/whatever drive round in circles. Sometimes one will take over another, or there will be a crash. If I wanted to see this I could just go look at any road, specifically a motorway to fully replicate the speed and likelihood of crash fatalities.
Football - A load of blokes running from one side of a field to the other. Then back again. Repeat forever, or however long a football game lasts for these days.
Rugby - See above, but with more distinct gay tendencies. I mean, come on, these guys run around trying to hug each other. Its quite sweet really, and I imagine would be a lot less painful if they weren't so eager to do so at speed.
Cricket - I cant honestly say whether I have ever watched this sport or not. It was clearly so boring if I have that I have completely wiped it from my memory. Men whacking balls with big bats? My sadistic side finds the thought highly amusing.
OK so while 'watching' the Grand Prix, this blog post seemed a hell of a lot longer and far more amusingly analytical. Having now written it, I am seeing that what I think in my head and how I manage to express it are two very different things.
In other news (whenever I write this I always feel like a news reader), the shoot has finished. The stress was stressful, but generally it was really good. I want to do another shoot and see how I cope with that before I make a full decision on what I want to do with my career. Hopefully I made a good impression, and I was told that I did. I practically managed all the costume department on my own, the only thing that I didn't have full control of was the design, but knowing that the production designer prefers sets and has no real interest in costume, maybe next time she'll give me more creative input. Its funny, as I have always said that I have no interest in designing, but I couldn't help thinking throughout what I would have done differently and how I would do things next time, so maybe I need to reconsider a bit.
Anyway, enough waffling.
<3 x
Anime / Manga: Ouran ep 23 / Watashi ni xx shinasai ch 14
Tuesday 2 November 2010
NaNoWriMo
Here follows an extract of my attempts at convincing Elle to do NaNoWriMo this year.
Elle: Okay your mind is strange ...
I amuse myself.
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Anime/Manga: Ouran Ep 16 / Watashi ni xx shinasai ch 14
Me: You best have started nano-ing today missus.
Me: Eleanor. Please tell me if you are nano-ing of not.
Me: Eleanor.
Elle: Shh classes.
Me: Eleanor.
Me: ... ARE YOU NANO-ING?
Elle: ...Ah nano no no no no - I have no story ideas no time and I haven't registered is it too late?
Me: You should write about the book you have to read, turn your reading and notes into a novel! ....
Elle: ... I'm not writing a story about pulling fur from cats etc its too upsetting.
Me: You could. .... Replace cat with drawer and fur with socks. Pulling socks from drawers isn't so upsetting, is it?
Elle: Okay your mind is strange ...
I amuse myself.
<3 x
Anime/Manga: Ouran Ep 16 / Watashi ni xx shinasai ch 14
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