Saturday 28 August 2010

Deep, yo.

I'm never really sure how much to put on this blog. I'm well aware that anyone who reads this can be divided into two groups. My closest friends, or people that randomly have come across this blog and haven't got a clue who I am. More likely the first.

Part of me likes to use this blog as a diary; I write things on here to get them off my chest and because I like to. But then again, I am also afraid of putting my soul online for potentially the whole world to see. How deep do I go in exposing myself?

As of yet, the things I have written on here are the things I would share with anyone.
My current love of manga and anime is something anyone who is close to me is fully aware of, not being ashamed to own a lot of supermarket clothes, wanting to finish my book, but being just too good at procrastinating; All useless bits of trivia about me that doesn't really reveal too much about who I actually am.

But my hopes and dreams, my fears and desires? I'm not too sure.

To put yourself out there, so exposed, would make one very vulnerable, and I think it takes someone very brave to be willing to sacrifice themselves to the online world.

I don't know whether I'm that strong.

Writing it is fine. Having people read it is a different matter.

<3

Manga: 29 (KP ch 65 & rereading Black Bird ch 7)
Last Google Search: xxxholic ch 207

Wednesday 25 August 2010

Realisations

Today I have realised a lot. Here is a list of my realisations.

1) The point when you cant keep your head level in the shower due to the weight of your hair means its probably time to get it cut.
2) I like this boy more than I thought I did. I was really disappointed at having to cancel on him this evening.
3) Someone, specifically my father, saying 'all dressed up with nowhere to go' does not help said disappointment.
4) I am an awesome friend. My oldest friend falls flat on her face in the mud, literally tied to a branch because her jeans got tangled into it that much, and all I can do is laugh. I haven't really stopped laughing about it, and it was like 6 hours ago. I even took a photo.
5) No matter how sensible you think you are being with your choice of footwear, it is inevitable that while walking in the rain in woodlands, your jeans will get muddy.
6) I still don't really like chips, even with brand new oil.
7) LM art is so much nicer than KP art.
8) I don't seem to understand the shift key, and when to use it. I keep pressing shift to type numbers.
9) I'm horrible to my parents when I'm hormonal.
10) When I say I'm going to do something on this blog, chances are I wont. Namely the novel thing. Oops.
11) I'm rather forgetful. I had a lot more realisations to tell you about before I started writing this.

I think that's enough revelations for today.

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch 56 & Love Monster ch 19)
Last Google Search: Esther Earl (DFTBA & RIP)

Kaltx'l

Even though I know that people, or should I say 'one person', reads this, its still comes as somewhat of a surprise to me when someone says they have read my blog, or mention something that I have only talked about on here.

Like earlier today, it took me a good minute or so to realise that Inki knew I had being buying a lot of clothes from Tesco lately due to yesterdays post, not because she is some scary stalker person who knows my every move at any given time.

Well, to be fair ...

Today, I did some designs (whoop) at work, packaged and addressed them all ready to send. then forgot to take the package into town with me. Fail.

I failed a lot today, like when I carried in to work with me £174 in small change, but didn't take my paying in book, which I had filled out etc, so couldn't not use it. So then, I had to cart it all back home, just to take it back into town again. Which was when a fore mentioned package incident occurred. Major fail.

I mean, that much change is heavy, people! I had to change bags because I wasn't sure my usual one was up to the strain!

Other than that, nothing else of incident has happened. I ate two chocolate bars and a chocolate sponge pudding with custard without going over my calorie limit; discussed my fathers feet in detail with Polson; made up a giant killer caterpillar, made him happy, then killed him off; and learnt how to greet someone in Na'vi.

Same old, same old.

I just realised my mother has been undressing Eddy again. She really doesn't like it when he wears stuff.

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch 52 & Love Monster ch 12)
Last Google Search: royal mail postage prices

Tuesday 24 August 2010

Fashion

There is little worse than walking into a shop and then looking down and realising you are wearing head to toe clothes from that shop.

The only thing that can possibly be considered worse is being in Tesco when this occurs, with the people around you, both staff and customer alike, very aware that you look like you live in the supermarket and just dress yourself straight from the shelves.

This happened to me today. Don't get me wrong, Tesco clothes, and in fact most supermarket fashions, are normally very good, with the latest fashions at very reasonable prices, but nothing says I cant afford new clothes more than rocking up to a midnight trip to Tesco in Tesco shorts, Tesco tights and Tesco cardigan. Oooh and Tesco knickers. In fact I do believe the only thing I was wearing that wasn't Tesco was my bra. Score.

Other than the above, today went well. I spent the whole day cleaning my room, then went for a walk as part of the exercise and shit thing. The writing thing didn't really happen. Nor the designing thing. I just figured I have work tomorrow morning, I can do it all then.

Why do today what one can do tomorrow, right?

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch 51 & Love Monster ch 7 *)
Last Google Search: Nurse Costumes (Don't ask)



*Kaikan is boring me somewhat, and I had an urge to reread LM, so I am. Okay, well mostly just wanted to read chapter 3, but figured I would go ahead and read all of it :D

Sunday 22 August 2010

Inspirations

So I think its fair to safely say I am failing at the whole BEDA thing. I did warn you that my life wasn't interesting enough to pull it off!

So today I went to Lacock Abbey, which was where they have filmed a heap of stuff, most notably the first two Harry Potter films. It was such a lovely place, and I know this sounds so stuck up, but it really inspired me to start work again on my nanowrimo novel.

I have never revealed much about my novel, but one of the main settings in the book is an old abbey that has been converted into a manor house, and Lacock was literally exactly how I imagined that abbey. I now have two real life locations for the two main places in my novel! So now when I finish the bones and come to editing, I have a more solid base to portray my setting, which I find very exciting! Not only that, but it lead me to re-evaluate some plot points I had been having trouble with, and now I have new ideas and new directions to go in ...

Right now, I'm feeling more upbeat about this book than I have for a long time!

I don't know why, but that makes me feel like such a real author; you know, writing what I know and utilising my influences and all that jazz, which also helps with the upbeatedness (if that's even a word, and I'm pretty sure its not, but oh well).

So, tomorrow being a Monday, I intend to get back into writing at least something every day. I am also intending to maintain the diet and exercise and shit, do better on the drinking more water, do some work on both designs and my business, and do some cleaning. I have a lot to do tomorrow.

Something has just occurred to me. This blog is nothing more than an overly wordy to do list.

Fantastic.

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch. 47 *this is a bloody long manga*)
Last Google Search: Beckii Cruel

Wednesday 18 August 2010

Backwards

Last Google Search: Asphyxia (cheerful, no?)
Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch. 28)

<3 x

I am writing this post backwards purely because I don't know what to blog about.

Like normally, I have at least some idea on what to focus a post upon, whether its work, or cake, or manga. But today, not so much.

Diet is going well, exercise and shit is going well; life is generally okay at the moment. Don't get me wrong, I'm still all but unemployed and struggling etc, but the sun is shining so I guess its hard to not feel a little bit good about life today.

Although I should really clean my room at some point.

I saw The Sound of Music last night, starring Connie Fisher from 'How Do You Solve a Problem Like Maria'. It was really good, and she was excellent as Maria, but then again, I always thought she would be. The thing that impressed me most though was some of the costume changes. They were fast.

One highlight was when we were stood outside, and I was singing 'How Do You Solve a Problem Like Maria' and Zoe said 'unfortunately they don't sing that in this musical.' I stared at her til she realised what she had said.

Silly girl.

Like on Monday when she was telling me that she was going to do the slimfast diet, but keep eating everything like normal, like there was a magic ingredient in slimfast that makes you thin. I had to explain to her that slimfast works but replacing food, all that would happen if you supplemented your normal diet with it is that you would get fatter, and probably quite quickly.

Ok I think Im done.

Hello

Tuesday 17 August 2010

Diet started today

Myself and Zoe decided last week that starting today, we would be on a health kick. Meaning we would try to be healthy, not kick healthy things, or indeed healthy people, as that would be mean and somewhat uncalled for.

Now, those that know me know that in my book, a diet is slimfast. Being healthy means replacing food with milkshake and drinking more water. Although this time I'm also doing exercise.

Exercise
.

Like exercising and shit.

I don't normally do the whole exercise thing, mainly because I'm too lazy. I have been known to do a fair amount of exercise DVDs, but when you have no private space to do it in anymore because your father will pretty much always be around, you sort of loose your enthusiasm. I am not a strong enough swimmer to count that as exercise, and I probably walk too slow to do for any walking I do to count as such. Despite this, I am going to try and be good and do at least something every day.

Today was walking, specifically around the lakes. On a nice day like today, it felt more like a nice day out than anything else, and I burned over 300 cals. Score!

Although I do think I'm coming off as a bit of a slave driver to Zoe. I'm keeping a food diary for her, and threatening her with punishments if she exceeds her target calorie intake. Oh well :)

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch 22)
Last Google Search: Sticklebricks

Sunday 15 August 2010

Rainy days

I don't really know what to write today.

Rainy days always seem to damper my spirits somewhat. I guess everyone is the same. Not that I don't like rain, that is. I like rain; I like its smell, I like watching the raindrops splash into puddles, I like lifting my face up with my eyes closed, I like to stand in it when its really heavy just for a few seconds, and then go back inside to where its warm and dry.

Or rather, I like to think I do.

More likely, I'm grumbling at the sky for having the sheer audacity to start leaking on me, and avoiding doing anything I should be doing by using a little bit of water as an excuse. Which is never a good idea. I mean, come on, I live in England, I should be used to it by now.

I saw Elle today. It had been a week, and I had missed her. Despite this, I still managed to forget her tack and postcard. I put them on top of my bag as well; I really don't know how I managed to leave them behind. It's a skill I guess.

<3 x

Manga: 29 (Kaikan Phrase ch 16*)
Last Google Search: Doctor Horribel (FAIL)



* I have decided to bracket what manga I'm reading too, as a sort of document for me. I know you dont care.

Friday 13 August 2010

Ahem...

So lets just pretend that me not blogging for pretty much a whole week whilst trying to partake in BEDA never happened, okay?

To be fair, though, I was away. Without reliable Internet connection. And quite frankly, the urge to blog, as who I expect to be my only reader was with me.

We had an awesome time. We went to Scarborough to collect my work from uni, and have a mini break whilst doing so.

Uni was shit, they lost half of one of my costumes, and the rest were separated and everywhere but where they were meant to be. I feel so sorry for the girl who I graduated with that has taken over being the tec there; she has such a huge job ahead of her trying to sort out that excuse for a college.

For the rest of the time, we primarily ate sugar, played in sand (namely digging holes) and wasted money in the arcades.

It. Was. Awesome.

It was good to spend time with the girls. I know that sounds stupid, because I spend a lot of time with them anyway, but I don't know, just being together doing stupid stuff like digging a massive hole, and late night talks about random crap, was just really good. I love those girls so much, it was just nice to reconnect a bit. Especially in a place where the vast majority of my happy memories feature their few visits rather than the rest of those three years.

I fear it severely lacked tea, as I only had maybe three or four cups during the whole three days away, but the lack of caffeine was more than made up for my the amount of sugar. I don't think I have come down off the sugar high yet, and its been like two whole days.

Other things have been going on too, but I don't know how personal I want this blog to be yet, so I'll hold off on all that jazz for a bit.

<3 x

Manga: 29
Last Google search: Churchill car insurance

Saturday 7 August 2010

This post is to tell you ...

... that I'm too tired to blog today.

Will get better from next week(ish).

Promise.

<3 x

Manga: 26
Last Google Search: *It's empty :-O*n

Friday 6 August 2010

Crap

Not so much with the blogging over the past two days. I'm so shit.

Its OK, nothing important has happened anyway.

Unless you count me having three cups of tea at work today, that was pretty important to me.

<3 x

Manga: 26
Last Google Search: best flash game ever

Tuesday 3 August 2010

Guess what?

Guess what?

Its quarter to midnight again and I have just remembered I haven't blogged yet. Awesome. I can see this whole BEDA thing turning out to be me rushing to blog on time, and as a result posting random crap that has no merit whatsoever. Yay.

I though I feel remembering at quarter to midnight two nights in a row is rather impressive.

Lets think, anything exciting happen today? Well, no. I went to work, I got out my sketchbook, I put it away again after looking at it for a while. I went home for lunch and didn't have slimfast but spaghetti and cheese, which is rather notsome for the diet thing. And I had a pint of Pepsi Max again instead of 2 litres of water. I really do suck.

On the plus side though, I am keeping up with my calorie counter on my iPhone, not that its inspiring me much, and a boy just called me awesome :)

In other news, I have been feeling rather chipper lately. You know you are feeling happy when you use a word like chipper. No reason why, I just have. Well I guess a boy calling me awesome maybe has something to do with it.

Although when I act happy in front of my parents, they get all freaked out and want to know whats wrong with me. So that's always good.

<3 x

Manga: 26
Last Google Search: How to make a cloning machine (What? It might come in handy)

Monday 2 August 2010

Speedy

OK so its quarter to midnight and I just remembered I had not blogged yet, which I think is fair to expect a lot of in the next month, if you are lucky enough to get a post at all, so here goes.

What can I talk about today?

Well work was busy busy this morning, which is surprising for my work at any rate. I don't think I ever had to cross call people (as in call one, then call another, and then call back the first one) in all 4 or 5 summers I have done holiday cover at the office previous to this summer, so that's impressive.

I even managed to make time to do some design work, albeit not very much. But so far, not bad.

The diet; not so good. Drinking water; also not so good. Which probably explains my headache right now, actually.

Must. Try. Harder. Tomorrow.

Short and sweet. I think I'll leave it at that.

<3 x

Manga: 26
Last Google search: Gluey

BEDA

So, I was totally going to do BEDA (Blog Every Day in August) this year ... except I forgot the first day.

Failing before I have even started ... I have hit new heights, people.

Maybe I'll start a new trend, BEODA (Blog Every Other Day in August), or rather more likely BOA (Blog Occasionally in August). I could even shorten it to BO (Blog Occasionally) and be on the path to success already.

Now I think about it, I don't really have an interesting enough life to blog everyday. The only reason I decided I wanted to do it was because I miss writing, and I don't really feel the motivation to work on my nano novel. Which I do want to get completed before November, by the way.

Ok, some updates.

Since the 25th June, when I was feeling a bit lost after having finished Vampire Knight, I have read 21 Mangas, which totals my ... um ... total to 26. Maybe I'll do a little tally at the end of blog posts a la Kristina Horner and her burritos. Oooo and the google search bar thing, because I do that a lot too and it amuses me.

Me and Elle found out bread is better at Morrisons than Sainsburies, Pepsi Max keeps every ones caffeine based needs happy, and to NEVER buy own brand Soft Cheese.

Me and Elle also fished a lot and found Elle some very amusing guys to talk to. She has progressed from not having anything to do with messaging them, to doing so almost completely unsupervised (read; ALMOST). Also, we made fajitas and again couldn't manage more than two. We have fallen so much.

I met a boy. I got upset. I got a call off Inki from far off lands. I felt better.

We went to the beach. We have plans to go again, but in the opposite direction. E X C I T E D.

Oh, and about the theory from last post that I would be more productive, needless to say, I failed. I think at everything; the diet went balls up, I didn't drink anything (maybe) and I definitely didn't do any work. Sigh.

I have this thing that I have to start new things on Mondays, so tomorrow (well, today, but its still yesterday because I haven't been to sleep yet*) I will do better. Diet, water, work, everything.

But now, it is nearly 1am, and I need to have a shower before bed so I don't have to get up early to do it. But I cant really be bothered.

In fact, this whole post was purely a procrastination. Awesome.

<3 x

Manga- 26
Last Google search - uninhabited islands off Hawaii for sale

*Yeah, I'm confused too.