Upon ever encroaching death

I'm so upset. Like, so so upset. Also angry, but mostly upset. It's ridiculous, but my heart is actually broken. 

So I have been playing The Sims Freeplay on my phone for a long time now - on and off so I had quite a few update missions to work through, but you know, still played fairly regularly. I have a lot of Sims; All of Super Junior including past, present and sub unit members, all of Shinee, Lee Minho, myself (obviously), as well as my children with Siwon, Lee Minho, Kyuhyun and Donghae respectively. Plus a random old person that I planned to make an old person wife for eventually. That's 27 sims that I am very happy with, all aged to perfection in perfect houses living perfect lives. T

Now, I've just got round to the Life Quests and Legacies update mission. The tasks seemed fairly normal. Until I had to age an adult Sim into a senior. Eunhyuk was the only Sim free, and having read that aging could be reversed, I completed the task. Then I found out that not only could I not make poor Hyukkie back into an adult, but that from now on, all of my beloved Sims are going to age and die and the only way I can stop it is to kill 4 Sims for every Sim I wish to save.

It's like a horrendous version of Sophie's Choice! I don't want my Sims to die. I've spent hours, weeks, months, hell probably even years on these guys. It's hard enough watching real life people age and die, the last thing you want in a game is too much reality. 

I think I have to stop playing the game. Give up on everything to save myself from having to grieve loosing my perfect neighbourhood. 

Maybe one day I'll have the strength to rebuild, to start again, and this time, not to start the misery quest and death update mission. 

Early

What does it mean when I find myself in bed not only before midnight, but by quarter to 11? 

I just don't want to be awake anymore. I know that sounds overly dramatic, and that's totally not what I mean, but I can't think of another way to describe it. I'm not even tired, but I want to be asleep just to not have to be awake for a bit.

Am I stressed? Yes, probably. I have an iniment fitting for a bride, her mother and her bridesmaid. I also have a gazillion costumes to sort and return ASAP before my credit card charges me for them. And that's not even mentioning the big job right now. I'm considering my days off to be the days I go to school, which I guess means I don't really have any down time, but then again I'm not working past 6, so I have my evenings. Not that I don't feel constantly guilty about not working at night. 

I also need to really get back into ebaying everything I don't absolutely need. So that's another thing I should be doing.

Money is a pain in the arse. Wish I could go back to 15 year old me and give her the dream of being something easy, rather than this.

This wasn't meant to be such a complain-y post. I only started writing it because it suddenly occurred to me how out of character I have been over the past few days by going to bed so early.