Past it

I remember being somewhere between 18 and 21, going to a bar on a Friday or Saturday night, and feeling ancient. 10 years later, not much has changed, I still feel just as old and out of place. 

I hate ‘going out’, especially with people who aren’t my friends. I just cannot be bothered with the noisy locations, the forced polite conversation and the awkward sitting around not making polite conversation because the music is too loud. 

I’d much rather be at home instead. 

What the .....

On Monday, I told the boy I was seeing that I didn’t think we were right for each other. He then proceeded to show up at my house, uninvited, at 10 o’clock at night.

On Wednesday, that boy sent me flowers to ‘show’ me just how much he ‘adores’ me.

On Friday, a friend of that boy text me to tell me how down afore mentioned boy has been because I broke his heart

Number one. I met this boy a handful of times, 6 at most. Not 6 years ago,but only 6 times.
Number two. Turning up at a girls house to declare your feelings is only romantic if she reciprocates. If she doesn’t, and she had made that perfectly clear, then it’s just creepy.
Number three. £30 for a tiny bunch of flowers is a rip off, and doesn’t show me anything other than that supermarket flowers are much better value and quality.

But none of this is anywhere near as ridiculous as number four ...

In what world is it ok for someone I have never even met to message me out of the blue and tell me what to do with my love life? How dare afore mentioned boy give out my personal details to a complete stranger?

I cannot explain how sick to the stomach I felt at receiving that message.

Bad Guys

First up, you may remember me basically saying I have been avoiding watching this drama for years, despite its high rating. Something about it just didn’t appeal and I was convinced I wouldn’t enjoy it. Boy, was I wrong.

Oh Gu Tak is a controversial detective, suspended after the murder of his daughter for going a bit crazy and beating people up. On the suggestion of his buddy, who happens to be the Police Commissioner, Oh Gu Tak joins forces with inspector Yoo Mi Young to bring three dangerous criminals out of prison to catch other criminals with the incentive of decreasing their sentences. Think Suicide Squad and you’ve pretty much got it. Park Woong Cheol is a famous gangster who took control of the whole of Seoul within a month. Lee Jung Moon is a genius psychopath serial killer who can’t remember killing his 15 victims. Jung Tae Soo is a contract killer who turned himself in and is ridiculously hot. Together, they are the Bad Guys Who Catch Bad Guys.

Yes, that’s pretty much the title. Inventive.

They pretty much run around investigating murders and beating people up and stopping organised crime. There is coherence, and every story does lead to the next which all comes together for the final few episodes. It was graphic, and even borderline upsetting at times, especially the organ trafficking episode, but it was shot so beautifully. The first couple of episodes in particular, the cinematography was stunning, although it was a shame that they had to blur out so much, as it was a little distracting. Basically every time there was a knife on screen, it was blurred out, and most if the characters seemed to spend most of their time holding knives. There was a realism to the way they rendered it, like you could see every pore on their faces, where as normally, the cast look almost airbrushed into perfection. There wasn’t even a romantic sub plot, unless you count Tae Soo going a bit gooey over the widow of one of his contracts. It just felt utterly different from any Asian drama that I have ever seen before, in literally every way.

I didn’t recognise many people in this drama. Jung Moon was Yoo Jung in Cheese in the Trap, which I hated and hated him in, although I enjoyed him in this. I just feel like Park Hae Jin is so much better suited to the creepy psychopath of this than the romantic, food obsessed, overaged lead of Cheese in the Trap. I also recognised the Police Commissioner as being the high up important army guy in Decendants of the Sun, which to be honest just made me want to rewatch it even more. Other than these two though, I didn’t recognise anyone, which is rare these days. I didn’t even know Jo Dong Hyuk, who played Tae Soo, which is a shame because he was lovely.

Would I recommend it? Yes, its a great drama that actually deserves the title of ‘drama’.

Would I rewatch it? Maybe, but at least not for a long time. I’m not sure how exciting it would be when you know what’s going to happen.

What comes next is difficult again. Do I learn from this experience and go for Six Flying Dragons, being a highly rated drama that I’ve avoided, this time because it’s so freaking long? Or rewatch DotS? Or do I start on Switch, which is currently quite highly rated, but I’m unsure whether that’s solely because it’s new, still airing, and stars Jang Geun Suk? I think I might go for Six Dlying Dragons ...

Why are you here?

I finished watching Bad Guys this evening. I intended to write a review post about it. Instead, somehow, I lost an hour on instagram and now it’s too late. So it’ll have to wait until tomorrow.

You know, each one of my posts get a very similar number of views. That suggests that a similar number of people are accessing this blog every day. What if those people are the same people? An audience who reads my posts every single day and notices when I miss a day. I don’t know why anyone would intentially read this drivel, but I suppose it’s possible.

Hello, if you’re here on purpose, but why?? I don’t post anything at all interesting.

Hello, if you’re not here on purpose. I’m sorry to have wasted your time.

Not Quite

I was hoping to do a review post tonight, but I’m half an hour through the final episode of Bad Guys and I can’t seem to keep my eyes open, so I guess that’ll be tomorrow or something instead.

I don’t like typing on iPad. Everything is never quite right when you do, and you end up having to change a lot as you re-read through it.

I dint think I cab even write anymore, I, too tired. I’ve had a stinkin* headache all day. I can’t eve; be bothered to change wga5 had been written so here you go, what my blogs look like before I proof read them. I blame the iPad keyboard.

Done

Less than 24 hours ago, I wrote “I’m not giving up completely” on this boy I’ve been seeing. But you see, I’m pretty stubborn, so when I’ve made my mind up about something, it’s set. So today I ended things with said boy. 

He did not take it well. To be fair, he could have been worse, but he certainly didn’t handle the news with maturity. Instead he keeps sending me messages about how sad he is, sometimes with teary emojis to reinforce his point. We went on a handful of dates and I feel like he is reacting as if we were in a long term relationship. 

Do I feel good about it? Of course not. I don’t like to make anyone upset. But I don’t feel as bad about I as I feel I should.

I know I made the right decision, because at the end of the day, he was not right for me. He was too young, in literally every meaning of the word. I need someone with more maturity and more life experience; someone who can give me as much as they receive. 

This is what I’m realising. Relationships are about balance. In this case, I don’t think any aspect of our relationship would have been on even standing. 

I don’t want to go into too many details, because that would be unfair. 

Nah

Oops, I seem to have forgotten to post since Thursday night. I was doing so well too, and it’s been the weekend so it’s not like I’ve been too busy to post. In fact, I’ve literally done nothing. Another wasted weekend. 

I did go on a date. I’m not really feeling it, which is a shame because I was feeling quite positive about the whole thing not so long ago. All of a sudden, there’s a lot of things bothering me, and I can’t help feeling like I was liking the thought of having someone more so than the actual someone themselves. I’m not giving up completely, just being a bit more careful. I don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up. 

I saw an advert in the paper today for a paper boy/girl, and they were offering £10 an hour. £10 an hour!! I thought £3 or £4 would be the going rate. It’s no wonder you see more adults delivering papers now than kids. Hell, I’m considering it for £20 a shift .... it’s just that the shift starts at 5am. 

I’m good thanks.

I just want to sleep

I just woke up from my pre sleep nap and remembered I hadn’t posted, so here I am even though I would much rather go to sleep instead.

I don’t even have anything to say. Had a lovely evening in with Rachey tonight and she helped me figure stuff out, while eating sticks a celery and watching Moulin Rouge.

Agi is very pouncy at the moment. I need to figure out how to change that because she is absolutely destroying my arms and legs. It was a lovely day today and everyone else was in short sleeves and bare legs, and there’s me with my cardigan and black tights because I don’t want to expose my mauled limbs. I think I just have a constant smell of Savlon about me from the amount I have to plaster on new scratches every day.

Right that’s enough. Good night.

Retrospect

I forgot to post last night. It didn’t even occur to me until I woke up this morning, and then it was literally my first thought. It wasn’t even like I was doing anything or had a particularly late night.

To be honest, I think I’m struggling a bit with the lighter nights. I don’t ever remember being like this before, but it’s like I can’t judge time in the evening any more, and all of a sudden it’s 9pm and I haven’t eaten yet. I blame the year for passing by so quickly - it doesn’t normally go this fast.

Retrospect is a fine thing you know. I was feeling so confused after Monday night, but now I think I know what happened. I listened too much to what he was saying and totally didn’t pick up on what was actually happening. I’m still not 100% sure that my suspicions are correct, but I think I need to take a few steps back, stop planning so far ahead and stop trying to move things along as quickly.

I kind of don’t want to end the post there, so now I need to think of something else to say. I’m actually really enjoying Bad Guys. It’s very different from anything else I’ve seen, and is far more greusome, but it’s also shot beautifully and the story lines are intriguing. I’m glad I bit the bullet and gave it a chance, it is definitely worth the high rating.

Who knows

As far as first days back go, today wasn’t bad, other than there being no non dairy milk, therefore forcing me into having a black decaf tea. It was the classic can’t get to sleep and then keep walking up every half hour thing though this morning, as I was paranoid that I’d over sleep and be late. But other than that, all fairly straight forward

Then this evening, a boy came round and I cooked us fajitas, with dairy free cheese that my cat kept trying to nab until we were forced to lock her out of the room. He said they were good, and I think they were ok to be fair, but I’d be interested in his true opinion. I did offer him to buy his own chicken and dairy items if he wanted them!

Boys can be like that, they often might say one thing but mean something else because they don’t want to say it. Tonight for example, I’m not sure if what he said was what he meant, or just because he didn’t know how to say what he was really thinking.

Time Flies

Back to work tomorrow. The easter holidays have flown by, and I would totally not complain at another two weeks off. That’s the problem with lomger breaks, you get used to not working, and then it becomes harder to get back into the swing of things. Tonight for example, I intended to get an early night. Yet here I am, nearing midnight and I’m still awake.

I am tired though. I woke up early this morning - at least early for a day without plans.

I have also eaten a lot of dairy in the past few days so need to do something about that. I can’t very well see what effect giving up dairy has if I don’t actually give it up.

I guess this is turning until a “from tomorrow I’ll do this and this” type of post. This is boring even for me so I’m going to cut it short here instead, and go to sleep.

sleeeeep

I didn’t post last night because it was very late and I decided to try and get to sleep instead.

Tonight, I’m attempting to post to avoid missing another day, but I’m really tired and just want to go to sleep. I’m aware that I’m spelling things wrong and making a lot of silly mistakes, and pretty soon I won’t be bothered enough to correct them.

In the old days, this used to be called sleep posting. Basically when your eyes are so heavy that they’re barely open as you type. Great fun to reread, more embarrassing for the other party.

Short run down of the past couple of days in sleep post style.
Friday - Had a date, we talked a lot, my cat spilled dip all down my front.
Saturday - new home visit, floor picnic, trip to park, girl chats

I’m so sleepy now

Lo Siento

Super Junior released their latest song today, and I really like it, far more than their past couple of releases since their two year hiatus, because apparently they can promote without everyone apart from Donghae and Eunhyuk.

Literally, while the other members were in the army, they still released music, even now, with their two main vocalists in the military, but they just full on put a stop to everything from the moment Eunhae enlisted to when they discharged.

It makes me really sad to see an incomplete Super Junior. During the two year break, I welled up a bit to see only 4 people representing what should be 15 members. Currently, there are 7 active members, Leeteuk, Heechul (although he isn’t performing), Shindong, Yesung, Donghae, Eunhyuk and Siwon. Ryeowook and Kyuhyun are still in the army, and Zhou Mi and Henry are only in the Chinese sub unit. I know Kibum and Hangeng are no more, and Kangin is reflecting after doing far too many very naughty things, but Sungmin? It’s pathetic that he’s been forced out of his group just because he got married and didn’t tell the so called fans. It makes me so angry, especially with what happened to SHINee. How I wish Onew had been there for their last performance together. Life is too short to boycott a member because of something so stupid. You never know what will happen next and I certainly don’t want Sungmin to be sidelined because he got married.

Anyway, sorry, I got a little carried away there. Back to the song.

It just felt like Super Junior. It was catchy, and I’ve played it about 10 times today, with it stuck in my head the rest of the time. I liked Black Suit, but it just didn’t really work for me somehow. Super Duper was good fun but meh. Lo Siento is just classic SuJu. All the pelvic thrusts for a start. Super Junior just wouldn’t be Super Junior without thrusting.

I particularly enjoyed Shindong’s part where he clearly had something wrong with his eyebrow. If someone next to me at a bar lifted his eyebrow at me that frequently over that little a time, I would definitely move away as quickly as possible, especially to dance with Leeteuk instead.

Can we take a moment to talk about Eunhyuk’s styling on M Countdown? A bright yellow, baggy, double breasted suit, with a purple satin shirt is bad enough, but why top it off with a mullet? Poor boy.

I really liked Leeteuk’s outfit though. 

Chief Kim

I haven’t written a review post in a L O N G time. How do I even start? Maybe I should go back and read some of my old reviews for inspiration.

Ok, so it’s been 5 years since my last review post. 5 years. That’s crazy. 

It’s seems that I had a little formula going. First I’d explain the plot, then I’d say what I thought, and then I’d say what I was going to watch next. For the Japanese dramas I used to find links between the actors and what else I’d seen them in, which actually I might reinstate, although I don’t know how much fun it’d be without the Gokusen factor. 

I realise that I’m procrastinating. 

Chief Kim is about Chief Kim...

Excellent start there. Let’s try that again.

Kim Sung-Ryeong is a dodgy accountant for dodgy people in somewhere that isn’t Seoul. His life ambition is to move to Denmark, and takes on dodgy jobs to eek out as much money from the monsters and criminals as he can. He is consistently arrested for fraud, but is so skilled at covering his tracks that he is always released with lack of evidence. One day, his secretary tells him about a job opening as chief of the accounting department at TQ group where they promise not to discriminate in regards to education and experience. Kim goes for the job with the plan of embezzling a huge sum of money to get him to Denmark, and newly appointed director Seo, an ex prosecutor, convinces the chairman to hire him to act as their puppet in various fraudulent activities. However, Chief Kim isn’t as easily controlled as that, and soon comes to realise the corruption within the management of the company. He grows closer to his colleagues and develops a conscience, eventually taking on Director Seo and the Chairman to protect the rights of his colleagues. 

I’m not going to lie, it look me a fair amount if time to get through this series. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoyed it, but it didn’t grab me too much for the most part, although the last 4 or 5 episodes I could have watched one after the other. I found Namgoong Min’s Chief Kim to be a little too over the top, and Nam Sang Mi as Deputy Yoon a little bleh. I did have a soft spot for Director Seo though, even though he was the villain, but that was probably because I have a soft spot for 2pm’s Junho. I did find the absolute lack of romance really refreshing, especially when you thought they were going to go there, but then they didn’t. A particular favourite example was when Deputy Yoon complained of the cold, and Chief Kim looked like he was about to take off his jacket, but instead said that she should have worn something warmer like he did. Having said that, I would have totally approved of Deputy Yoon and Director Seo getting it on at the end. 

Namgoong Min was the lead in Beautiful Kong Shim, and I must say I preferred him in that, although the characters were actually quite similar. Obviously I already knew Junho from 2pm, but he was also the lead in the last drama I watched, Just Between Lovers, along with Kim Kang Hyun’s Clerk Lee. To be honest, I loved their friendship so much in Just Between Lovers that I was kind of disappointed with their lack of contact in this. I also recognised Accounting Director Choo as the investigator from   While You Were Sleeping, and the Chairman’s son was also someone suspicious in Suspicious Partner.

Would I recommend it? Sure, why not. It’s good fun.
Would I watch it again? Probably not. I really enjoyed seeing where this drama ended up, but I don’t know that I’d be overly bothered about goimg through it all again.

Next up is a tricky one. Technically it should probably be something like Replay 1988 or The Good Doctor, older dramas that have high ratings*, but I find myself tempted by Jang Geun Suk’s Switch, currently still airing, or rewatching Dots.
To be honest, Dots will probably win, because I want to see Onew. Seeing Song Joong Ki doesn’t hurt either.


* I’m trying to go by rating on Viki, which is hard when they don’t actually list the series in order. I’m on the 9.6’s now, except for Six Flying Dragons and Jewel in the Palace as they’re both 50 episodes long. There is also Bad Guys, which hasn’t appealed, but maybe I should give it a chance.

Ok that’s my first review in 5 years done. I don’t have a photo because blogger has made that difficult, but if you really want one you can just google ‘Chief Kim Junho’ and that should see you right.

Lazy Day

I had a really busy day yesterday. Up and out at 8.30 to drop Agi off at the vets, home for a quick cup of tea and then off to get petrol and some buttons from Hobbycraft, then finishing a dress, meeting a friend fir lunch and then having a two hour walk before heading back to pick up Agi. Sure after that it was quite quiet, but that was a fair amount if running around for a day off.

Today I woke up, tidied my dining room a bit and did a load of laundry. That’s it.

This evening, at 8.30, I was looking to see what was on, and saw I had two options at 9. I decided I wouldn’t watch either as I was too tired and something starting at 9pm seems late when you live alone. So I turn off the TV and play on my phone for a bit. Next thing I know, the light goes off because it’s 10.30, and somehow I just wasted 2 hours, mostly on instagram, and both the shows I decided not to watch have finished. I come to bed and somehow, now it’s nearly 12.30.

If I have a super power, it looks like it’s the ability to fast foward exactly 2 hours into the future. I suppose it’s a good way of getting out of a fight - chances are it’s finished before you even know it’s started.

Spayed

Agi was spayed today.

I was really worried that she would be in a massive mood with me, not just fir the operation, but also because I left her and that I couldn’t give her anything to eat since her tea last night. Luckily, if she was pissed off, she got over it quickly, as she is being as lovely as ever. She’s currently lying over my shoulder asleep, and has been cuddled up to me al,let ever since we got home.

Other than the time when I was sitting on the floor and she kept trying to attack my crotch. That felt a bit vengeful.

Dairy Free

Today I got my food shop, and not a single item contained dairy. Therefore, here starts my dairy free experiment to better skin and hopefully loosing some weight too. 

The first thing everyone says when you look for advice on how to prevent adult breakouts is that you should cut out dairy. I asked my doctor about it and she seemed to think it was all poppycock, but I know of other doctors who subscribe to this theory. The internet is littered with stories of people who cured their acne by going dairy free - in fact it’s actually really difficult to find any stories of people that gave up dairy and found it did nothing for them. 

I’ve long thought we shouldn’t eat dairy. Think about it, when you have a dodgy tummy, you avoid dairy. Why? Because it makes you feel worse. When I had a tummy bug a couple of years ago, I thought I’d eat a yogurt when I had started to feel able to risk something that wasn’t dry crackers. I thought the friendly bacteria might help. Do you know what happened? I got cramps so painful I cried out and had to make a mad dash for the toilet. I did not make it. It was traumatic. 

I gave up dairy for a week once before. After I started eating it again, I had horrible stomach pains and thought to myself that clearly dairy does not agree with me, but yet, for some reason, I continued and got myself used to it again. 

There are other reasons to go dairy free, but I’m just curious as to the effect of no dairy on my skin ... and my waistline. 

SMTown

All of the SM artists are in Dubai at the moment for SMTown, and there has been a lot of activity on social media covering their visit. I saw Minho dancing, which was good, and Key has been posting a lot on his Instagram so I think that’s good too. Taemin always has that serene smile of his, so I’m hoping that he is doing okay too. I’m only really still worried about Onew.

His charges were dropped the other day, finally. Basically, months and months ago, he got really drunk one night, fell over and grabbed a girl on the way down. She went to the police but pretty much instantly dropped the charges, but the claim had been made and investigations had to be done. It was a huge scandal and prevented him from promoting with SHINee. This was upsetting at the time, but plain heartbreaking when Jonghyun died and we realised that was the last chance for the boys to perform  together. At the funeral, he didn’t look well, and at the airport the other day, he just looked ... small and sad. There’s been a lot of photos and videos from the top of the Burj Khalifa but I’ve yet to see Onew and that worries me a lot. I’m sure he must have been there, as it looks like everyone is (SMTown, more like SMCity) - I just want to see him messing around with his friends like he used to, with Key slightly off to the side looking all embarrassed.

Ok so I’ve just spent a L O N G time on instagram and have finally found proof that Onew was at the tower, and was smiling. Leeteuk did some form of backstage thing at the concert so I need to find a subbed version of that to get a better idea what they were saying, but they all seemed okay. I even watched some fancams of the show, and yes, I have tears streaming down my cheeks but at least they looked like they were having fun.

My heart is a little more at ease now.

Happy birthday Jonghyun 🌹

Redesign

Do you think I need to revamp this blog? It’s been a long time, and while I like my blog design, I don’t know whether it’s not a little out dated. I don’t read anyone else’s blog anymore so to be fair I have no idea what the cool kids have their blogs looking like. I just feel like maybe it’s time to change. Also, I don’t think I need links to all the drama reviews down the side anymore - it seems pretty irrelevant. 

I have felt pretty crap all day today, starting from late yesterday evening, when I randomly started getting weird tummy cramps. Luckily they finally seem to have stopped this evening, so I have no idea what that was all about, but going out shopping with a sqiffy tummy is no fun at all. I didn’t buy any jeans, but then again I knew that I wouldn’t as they wouldn’t have had what I wanted, but I did buy two new dresses from Seasalt and managed to walk into and out of Saltrock without buying anything, which is a first. I also managed to not go into the Cadbury shop at all, which is another first. 

I’m heading home tomorrow. Agi has her operation booked in for Monday morning so I figured it’d be nicer for her to have the weekend at home to settle back in. I’m tempted to invite a boy over on the evening as we’d planned to get a takeaway, and as I won’t have got any food in yet, it seems good timing, but I also won’t have shaved my legs, so there’s that to consider too. 

We Shall See

I have a few posts in mind that I want to write. One is about tags. Another is about snails. Neogen pads. The difference between the Mediheal green sheet masks. All of these require time and effort, so who knows when you will be getting them. We shall see. Not today, at any rate. 

We went for a walk today. I realised that I need to buy some more jeans because mine got really filthy from a certain three year old trudging through lots of mud and then deciding to refuse to walk. Luckily, my mum and I had planned to go shopping tomorrow anyway. We don’t really know why we are going, as neither of us really need anything. I just want to go as we haven’t gone in my last few visits here, even though we always say that we will. I think mum wants to go just so she can go to Costa. To be fair it’s a pretty pointless trip, but never mind, I might post tomorrow about how I’ve managed to buy £1000’s worth of stuff for a fiver. I might post about spending a grand on stuff worth £5. We shall see, but hopefully it’s not the latter.  

I finally finished all my easter chocolate today. So technically, I should be able to go dairy free from tomorrow. The problem with trying to do anything here is that my parents fill their house with delicious tempting things, none of which I make a habit of keeping in my own home. So we shall see, but I can at least try. I need to give the whole dairy free thing a proper go at least, just to see whether it helps my skin clear up a bit. If it doesn’t then I don't think I’ll bother, even though there are a lot of other positives to going dairy free. I don’t know. We shall see. 

We shall see. I’ve written that a lot in this post. I guess that’s the title then. 

Auntie Gushing

Today, as I was tucked up in my sisters bed with my niece, eating mini chocolate Easter eggs out of her Easter bucket, I thought to myself that I should post about this moment later.

I don’t really know what else past me wanted to write, though.

Maybe something about how precious those moments are. She had just told me that she couldn’t choose between me and chocolate, which I think is fair, chocolate is very important. Or rather, she couldn’t chose between chocolate and Night Ninja, as that is my name at the moment. A couple of days ago I was Captain Turbot, but I think that Night Ninja sounds much more fun, even if that does make me a villain.

She wanted to play a lot of ‘Stuck’, which is when she bounces on me until I get fed up and then grab her, tickling her into a big hug that she struggles out of. Repeat about seventy thousand times until she gets distracted by chocolate. She also wanted to play a lot of wearing the Easter bucket as a hat, which is all well and good until she finds it significantly more amusing when it’s full of solid chocolate eggs and foil wrapper fragments. Repeat about seventy thousand times until I managed to convince her to do it to Gran instead.

Ahh she’s so lovely.

Foggy Mornings

I don’t really have anything to post about today.

I’m on Easter holiday at the moment, which means two weeks off work. Gradually, my bed time gets later and later, which means that my wake up time also get somewhat later and later. This is very much exasperated by being in Somerset, and for some reason, finding it exceptionally difficult to wake up when I’m here. I don’t know what causes it, but it’s like there is anaesthetic in the air. Waking up is like trying shake a thick fog out of my head. This is particularly unpleasant when my mother lets the cat in not just before I can properly wake up, but when I’m still fast asleep, which then means I not only have to try to shake the drugged feeling, but also defend myself from a miniature panther who’s sole desire is to bite my ears, nose and chin as much as possible.

Anyway, the point of this was to complain about how going to bed at the same time doesn’t mean that I sleep at the same time. I’ve not even watched anything, I just find myself wasting hours on rubbish of absolutely no significance. I’ve been playing a lot of 1010!.

I didn’t add the exclamation point, it’s part of the games name.

Easter

I get so excited about Easter, but it is very much one of those occasions where my eyes are bigger than my stomach. It’s all very well to plan to eat all your Easter chocolate by Easter Monday, but much more difficult in practice. I still have one and a half eggs and two creme eggs, four twirls and I don’t know how many Lindors left over.

What’s worse is that I can feel my skin starting to react again and I can only assume it’s all the chocolate. It’s all fun and games until it starts to show on the outside.

Some people would give it away, or maybe even throw it away, but not me. I just try to eat it all as quickly as possible to get it out of the way. Which then results in me feeling sick. I think rather than diet starts Tuesday, it’s just going to have to be diet starts when I get home instead. It’s so much easier to be healthy at home, I eat all sorts here that I never touch at home. Namely bread.

I’m starting to feel sleepy so I think it’s best that I finish this here, before the sleep posting starts to set in.

April

I finally placed my Yesstyle Korean Beauty order. It was getting fairly ridiculous, both in money as well as size, and I finally decided to cut it right down and just buy a couple of key products that I want to try so I can test them one at a time rather than basically changing up everything all at once and then having no clue what products actually work. So I wrote up a list on my phone of everything I want so I can keep track, and deleted over three quarters of my shopping basket.

In the end, I went for the Heimish All Clean Balm, the Pimple Patches and AHA BHA Clarifying Toner from COSRX, the Klairs Freshly Juiced Vitamin Drop. I also ordered a facial roller because my face is fat and I get some collagen eye patches from Etude House for free.

I am super excited.

I sort of have in my mind that I’m going to attempt to blog every day in April. Back in 2011 or something, this was known as BEDA and was all the rage. I’ve even started on the night of the 31st March so I could technically miss a day and still be on track. Hopefully I’ll have a lot to post about, what with new diets and exercise and skin care - I thought I might even bring back the review posts, although maybe not to the scale that I used to do.

Hopefully there will be significantly fewer sleep posts.

Always the Bridesmaid

The day before yesterday, a very good friend asked me to be her bridesmaid. Of course, it’s a massive honour to be asked to be a part of someone’s wedding, and is very much a testament to your friendship. I will admit to shedding a tear, and being somewhat surprised, but for some reason, I feel more anxious about being a bridesmaid this time around. I guess maybe because this is the last time I think I will ever be asked, as after Zoe, I’ve pretty much run out of close friends who aren’t already married, but mostly because I don’t really know how useful I am as a bridesmaid. Actually, to be fair, it’s probably 99% not being happy with my appearance right now. 

This will be my 5th time bridesmaiding, in 7 years. In that time, I’ve only been to 7 weddings, so to be honest, being a part of the wedding party is far more comfortable to me than being your standard guest. You just have to be with the bride and generally have a lovely pampery time getting ready and then just prance about in a fancy dress for the rest of the day. Eat a nice meal, take some photos, and dance around a lot ... but don’t throw up, that one is very important.

I think I’ve got this. Bridesmaid again. 7 years worth of experience should make me pretty well qualified, really.